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பூமிக்கு தேவை ?
சந்திரனா !
சூரியனா !!
சுனாமியா !!!

விடை உங்களிடம் !!!

எங்கே என் காதலி?

நித்தமும் கனவில் உலா வரும் - என் நிலா
பகலில் ஓய்வு எடுக்கிறாளோ?
காணவில்லை - பகலில் !!!

பகலில் காண்பதற்காக
ஒரு இரவை துறக்க - என்னால்
இயலவில்லை!!! காத்திருகிறேன்.

காத்திருகிறேன் நேரில் காண
எங்கே அவள் ?
காணவில்லை - ஒரு வேளையும் !!!

ஒரு வேளை அவளுக்கும்
என் நிலைதானோ?

I & ENGLISH

Science and technology multiply around us. To an increasing extent they dictate the languages in which we speak and think. Either we use those languages, or we remain mute - J G Ballard

 

English is such a language.This post is about, how I & English for past 21 years!

 

KINDER GARDEN:

 Yae-Bee-Cee-Dee-Eee-Yaf-G-Gach-Eye-Jay-Kay-...... when you cross the doors of pre-school, you can hear this! Sounds amazing. We start teach English to our brains there itself. Even my brother did the same. I didn't :( My mom said I cried a lot, to go pre-school and "I WON" finally, I skipped pre-school and entered into first standard.

 

I feel very bad for that now! Because I missed, kisses from my pre-school teachers :( :( 

 

PRIMARY SCHOOL:

 Well here comes my primary school English experience, I had good teachers, they taught me Maths and Tamil well. I have to thank my 3^rd STD sir, Mr.Seenivasan, who taught my name in English after getting angry by seeing quarterly English paper, where I wrote my name in TAMIL, some slaps here and there before that was bonus.

 

He gave an assignment to write down my name 100 times in 4line note book. I had no idea. I can write one word exactly 100 times in a day, that wasn't a matter. I don't know spelling.   I asked him; Next one minute I couldn't hear anything! Because he spanked my back!  Then he taught me. That's how I spot my name in English! Well I hope I never forgot!

(Don't blame my 3^rd STD sir and say how a small kid knows these things! In 2^nd STD itself they taught this. But I forgot L L )

 

MIDDLE SCHOOL:

I was in 8^th STD that time. For filling a young student scientist form (yes, of course, I am a young student scientist J). I was struggling to write down name of the school "Swami Vivekananda Middle school". Because always I used to write in short in all exams (as S.V.M.S),

 

The problem was worst like anything that time. I was filling the form in front of the School Correspondent and Head Master in HM's room, where my class teacher also standing near to me. I kept my head down and started filling the form with sounding as "vivekananda" using articles separatelyà

"VIVE-an-and-a " ( vee-----vey----yean----and---a)!!!.

Then what else, I got full day scolding. But the correspondent, who is head of the institution, couldn't hit or scold me!!! Because he is my father and the school is our own! School!! : J J J J But I knew he felt bad, like anything that day.

 

My mom started again the old story, that's why I cried to join them in English medium school!

He who is running a Tamil medium school joined his sons in English medium means! No need to tell….what the well-wishers of my father will do!!! I support my father's decision;

 

So, I realized that I have to develop it. This incident happened at the end of 8^th STD. Sooner I forgot it in annual holiday as usual.

 

THE HINDU NEWSPAPER:

 I hope everyone read "The Hindu" paper, which is meant for Standard English paper that time, I mean 10 years ago, (may be now too, but Arthy (junior) felt the  standard is not up to the mark now a days in her blog; So I used like that). I had close times with Hindu paper. Yes, my father's part-time business is Hind Paper Agent. Even though, in my town, Sivagangai, there were no enough readers to run it!  He refused to give up. Because my grand father handled it for nearly 10 years and followed by my father for more than 15 years.

 

My brother and I were used to go, morning to distribute and evening for collection from shops. Those periods, I used to see, at least 100 papers per day. But my interest was fully on weekend Saturday supplementary, which had "YOUNG WORLD" were I can found lot of color pictures and "SPORTS STAR" to collect the cricket star faces to create albums.

 

We did nothing other than business from it.

 

HIGH SCHOOL AND YOUNG STUDENT SCIENTIST PROGRAM:

 In both the places, I didn't face any difficulty in reading/writing English lessons. Scored well. These places improved my confidence and positive thinking attitude.

 

HIGHER SECONDARY SCHOOL:

 This is my first school, where there are two mediums in same school. I felt the low importance given by the staff's to Tamil medium. In their point of view, the English medium students scoring and going for Engg or Medicine, but we people were only for Arts and most of them stops their education after 12^th.

 

My work had been neglected and I ranked nearly 15^tt in 11^th STD over the school. I underestimated my self. Thought I can't well.

 

Later, I get closed to Oxford Matriculation school students through my friend Jeeva and English Medium students through Srinath (both are my street friends), and  found they are struggling in doing Maths, the subject which I am talented (After all my father and grandfather both are mathematician ).I started teaching maths to them, and saw they couldn't follow my speed. So first I teach to my friend Srikanth, later he taught to others.

 

Slowly, I found that they are just English medium students who are learning science and maths through English, that's all. Before that I imagined once they started speak, they will speak as HBO, START MOVIES, ENGLISH NEWS people.

 

Slowly I build the confidence, strengthen my attitude. I know two things well that time. "Whether BE or Medical, have to study in English only. But to get a seat, we need mark only for that medium is not a matter" and "I can score well". Well I did at last dude; I scored 1123 in public exam and which is school first too J

(The reason why English medium students, particularly the one who was expected to score well, failed was because of a girl, yes love, that too one side). So Its like I won Anna post.                                                                                                   

 

NOTE: Whenever I say, I build my confidence, came to know one thing. Its not like I keep on thinking and working in that completely. Just like that, It all happened.

 

COLLEGE:

 I came to college, will all dreams but one by one I forgot slowly. I enjoyed the college times. But I set free , Itake one note, write thing things to do, how to develop the skills!

 

Its like, after Symposium means things about Technical, Debate club means English, on higher education means planning to prepare for GRE, TOFEL like that. I improved

My knowledge set bit by bit.

 

Seeing movies, am I developed anything? I didn't find anything till now! But thanks to MRP            

 

The highlight is college time, is during placement times, conducted so many GD's in class room and hostel rooms! And spoke for a week fully in English and reading again "THE HINDU" newspaper daily à but once placed!!!! That's it, Full stop for all.

 

                                                                        

TRAINING:

 The place where I met other language people in one place. I have no option, right or wrong I have to use.

                                                                                                                                            

In colleges, like our lectures who first say some words in English than Tamil, they too did on two, but English and Hindi. I had a chance to speak with top management persons and HR people in mobiles and conference call. Where I found I have a base enough strong. Only thing this, I have to build it correctly.

 

Here it goes, after training, @Bangalore, again with a note for English and finding words, idioms and phrases daily!!! J and The Hindu paper (esp) J

I'M TAGGED

I’m TAGGED;

Some days back, my friend tagged me. I asked her what it means. She said it’s simple, easy; just you have to disclose ten secrets.

Oh ho….there you are! It’s easy for me, to tell 100 stories which happened in my life…but to reveal a secret that too 10….my God….I just said, I need some time…because I don’t want to harm any one on (because I already did it, and still paying for it)... At the same time……I don no what are the things to say……but at the same time, after all it’s my choice…because she doesn’t mention anything like top 10 J (I hope)

Here it goes!!

1. Otto-phobia :

All of us know friends are damn good to link you with opp. Side. From school days, it self, I am a victim, in school times itself.

She is one of my close friends and I can’t ask classmates to quiet! I donno what to do? Then one day, an idea torched in my little mind. I gave her a card with wordings “Dear Sister”........

That’s it! I esc from “ottuthal” with her…

P.S: I did the same twice in college. The point here is, one is because of “Otto-phobia” and other is just like that. (If my college sisters, to whom I gave card, you can chose any one out of two as you wish J )

This idea is -> Copy right to balajihands@gmail.com.

2. Election:

In the recent election, I voted for P.Chidrambaram, who is our Home Minister. You know one thing, I didn’t tell this to my father and mother till now, but before you read it, I will call and tell it J J J

3. kindergarten:

I haven’t do LKG or UKG before entering into 1^st STD. But my brother did! My mother told I used to cry a lot and hit near by child so they didn’t send me.

4. AIEEE exam :

When I was in 12^th, some of my friends said they are going to write AIEEE exam. I asked those what’s it? What’s the use? And got money from my father, and later I came to know! The question paper is bullshit it’s either in English or Hindi only. (I was in Tamil Medium).Then, I spend half of the money, and return remaining to my father J J

5. STYLE-A:

In college time, I used to try lot of hair style (nothing worked out). But I never tried to impress a Girl. Now, feeling why I did like that? If not so, like my roommates, now I might be busy in call always.

May be? I wouldn’t see such a girl in college. (If anyone is there, and reading this, sorry I missed you J )

6. Ambition

My childhood dream and present (?) ambition is to become a Scientist. Reason, why it is delayed, in between I was turned by others, towards Medical, Teacher, Engg, IT ….. Now I found my path to destiny. But still I have confusion, whether to walk in that or not!!!

7. Cried for nothing:

Normally, I never cry for things, go unpredictably. When I missed medical college seat, lover, arrear in 3^rd SEM, first posting in Gurgaon (then Bangalore) and etc…Whatever happens, I take it like that and handle it.

But during the placement time, I did after missed CTS (our first company). In which most of my friends are placed. It’s nearly for half an hour. The thing is if I did something wrong in interview, there is some valid point. But the idiot asked me only two questions (last SEM favorite subject? units in that subject?) that’s it, interview over and I am not selected. I went to room, and cried inside my heart (without drops of tears) and came down congratulated my friends and had nice dinner.

Then I continuously I missed next 4 companies, But I never gave up my confidence. My friends were astonished with that. Then I found the one.

Some months back, one of my friends said you are lucky! You haven’t placed in CTS. See us! We were waiting n waiting… but you people going to have 1yr experience. Later I thought, yha he is true. I was shame on me, Am I cried for worth thing?

(Please, the one who are all placed in CTS, ignore me, I didn’t put this here to offend anyone.)

8. IàMobile:

In the modern world, every one uses mobile. Changing there models with latest one, frequently. But I couldn’t

My first mobile was, Nokia 1100, my father gave me. Second L5, Motorola, my brother gave me. Third LG 1350, I brought it when I was in Gurgaon. Currently, I have Samsung Model again from my brother. Oh! I forgot to tell, why I changed these many, I broken all first 3 J J J so I fear of getting a new model of high cost.

Even the current one, I laid down 2 times, God’s grace nothing happened, till now.

9. SMOKING:

I never smoked a cigar. Once my friend tried to put it in my mouth, indeed he got a kick in his ass. But I used to drink. I know it’s too bad; but I couldn’t

10. Visting Card:

Some of my colleagues ordered their Visting cards and whenever see anyone started giving it. But I didn’t. Although it’s free, I want to apply after getting my first promotion only. J J J

To write 10 points, I remembered lot of things, happened in my life. I realized what is tagging now!

So I like to pass this to the following people! Enjoy J J hahhahahhaha!

Deepika Mahalaskhmi

Sudha Tamilvanan

Am I Sentimental Idiot?

Its time to accept, I am a sentimental Idiot.

Yes, all of you know, I have a bicycle dream. Good news to you all, at last I brought one, 2 weeks back. Atlas Company, spring model, without gear and costs 3300 bucks. One more thing, I changed the name of the cycle to “HEE-GLADIATOR” (HEE-Healthy---Economical---Eco_friendly), thing left is, have to tag it and paste.

I was in full mood and whenever I call/chat, I used to tell, this as special J news from my side. But most of them questioned, why this small thing taken this much time!

I had no answer that time. But later found a reason that “I am an Idiot”, {{{so could everyone in this world.}}} Someone in Love, someone in Money!!! Myself in sentiment!!! Yes, Because of that it was delayed;

It’s not because of waiting for one fine day to buy a cycle after seeing in calendar, but because of, no free day in my calendar to go to cycle market and buy one. From March on wards, every weekend I was committed with functions/celebrations (both relatives, friends, office) starting from Marriage, Local Festival, Birthday, Get-Together, Election and here and there.

Last few months, I went to Chennai -> 3 times, Sivagangai -> 3 times Mana Madurai -> Once, Trichy -> Once, Madurai -> Once, College -> Twice. (I love to travel, so I never got drained, of course slept in the day travel oftenJ).At last, when I used to get free weekend, I was in need to buy dress/shoes or home appliance sort of things and thought these are foremost than cycle as of now.

Days were kept on rolling, because of my commitments to these things especially. At last one fine day, I brought it.

After this analysis, I had a clear-cut result such commitments delayed my work/dream ((and may be in future too)).But I never want to be out of these; what ever it takes from me, I want to be engaged in that. Because I strongly believe that time spent in these things leaves a Memorable moments in everyone hearts.

On the other hand, if anyone asks what the reason for delay in buying the cycle, I have accept that I am a “Sentimental Idiot”, J